Today is the day I’ve been looking forward to for four years. Ever since I signed up to get my bachelors degree in nursing so that I could continue on and get my Masters degree in nursing, I have been hoping for the day that I finish nurse practitioner school.
Today is the day my classmates are graduating from the University of Indianapolis with their masters of science in nursing degrees. I would like to congratulate each and everyone of them for this accomplishment, and I don’t want to rain on their day since it is a great achievement for them. But that does not change how I feel right now.
Today was supposed to be the day that I was done with formal education for the rest of my life.
But instead, today is just another day. Get up. Rake the yard. Watch a little TV. Take a shower. Go to work. Come home and go to bed.
Sometimes it’s hard to trust in God’s plan. Sometimes it’s hard to remind myself that He knows everything, and that He knows what is best for me.
It’s days like today that I have questions without answers. Why did I fail last semester by only one test question? Why has our house not sold yet? Why am I behind on my bills yet again?
God knows. But I don’t. All I can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other. Keep going to work. Keep waiting for the day this September when I can start school again, hopefully for the last time.
Words of Truth 
I just want to say that I know how you feel as far as the discouragement goes. We have been struggling with life since March 2014. Just when I think we’ve reached the light at the end of the tunnel, it goes dark. Lately, I’ve been wondering why I even pray at all since God seems to keep dangling blessing in front of our faces just to yank it away.
What is it that I’m not doing that I should be? I have no idea. Like you said, all that we can do is just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Life is hard!
Thanks!