A guy at church tonight asked me if I enjoyed being a nurse. I told him “yes and no.” Yes means that I like parts of my job, I enjoy helping people, making sick people better, etc. I don’t like working nights (but our debts require me to). I don’t like the cattiness of some of my co-workers. Most of all, I don’t like the fact that God called me into the ministry, but because I have debt, I have to do something else right now.
I am hoping and praying for the day that my debts are paid off and we can re-enter the ministry, serving God full time. God reminded me a few years ago that nothing is too hard for Him. I have to keep telling myself this. Perhaps I’m not ready, and so I strive to get closer to God, growing in my faith. Perhaps the place that He has for me is not ready. And so I wait, trusting in His timing.
Waiting is hard.